but her activity is not contemplative service. She is working for herself. No doubt she thinks she is working solely for God, but in fact her motivation is mixed. The apostles Peter, James, and John were in the same boat. They were human beings like the rest of us with all kinds of problems. Afflictive emotions like grief, anger, jealousy, envy, vanity, discouragement, and pride are rooted in the fact that we don’t know what our real motivation is. The thrust of Jesus’ initial teaching in the Gospel